I finished reading Bear on my front porch under unrelenting sun. A heat wave has been passing through Nova Scotia for the past twenty-four hours, and will stretch on for twenty-four more. As I write now—from my bedroom with the curtains drawn and the fan set to high—I think of all the other times I have lived small lives, which have ended. I am born into these lives all the time: say, languidly letting hours slip by in a beautiful room somewhere, having perfect conversation, then leaving, or finishing a fantastic dinner, slipping out of a dress never worn until tonight. These are possible at any moment, but they seem to come and go with particular resonance in the summertime. Each year, it feels like this will really be the last time, and so you want something to grab on to. The only other season in life in which one feels the pull of time so emphatically is when one is in love.
